Xotika

Dark, chocolate, smooth, beautiful skin.
Sweetness, open up - let me in!
Soft, moist, tasty, sensual lips.
I beg, plead, let me rock those hips!

Your smile so sweet, laughter so full,
When I'm with you, life is never dull.
Just to be in your presence is satisfying,
Without you there I find myself crying!

How did I let this love happen?
She caught me off guard - like I was nappin'
Her love is pure, gentle and sweet!
Kissing her from her head to her feet!

The web of the spider is intricately spun.
My heart, so delicate, broken - done!
I don't want to move on - we didn't have a chance.
The truth hurts - have we had our last dance?

I could sit and fantasize about her for hours!
Why waste brain cells on what will never be ours?
Would it be different if I were a man?
Would I stand a chance - then?

Is it a choice between He & I?
Well I don't want to compete - I won't even try!
Have to convince myself to let it go.
Can't stand the pain, don't like to feel this low!

Feel like I've been hit by a train,
With each beat of my heart I feel the pain!
Love should be cherished and desired,
Is my brain wrongly wired!

I wish I could express to her how I feel,
Scare her further away if she knew the deal!
It isn't that I don't want to be real,
All I really need is my heart to heal!

It has never come & gone so fast!
Closed my eyes and my time had passed.
I know I should have never gone there.
I know that I shouldn't care!

Pray to the Lord, ask forgiveness,
Is this who I am - is it a sickness?
I have done another man wrong!
No wonder my nights have been so long!

Maybe it is time to get out of this place.
Move back home - back to the rat race!
Will time and distance heal this heart?
Or will it tear it further apart!

Don't know where to end,
Don't have flowers to send,
Don't know how to act,
Feel like I just got jacked!