An Ode to 2008

It has been a tough year many will say
The economy, wars on two fronts, still today
But we continue on, come what may
I have much to be thankful for, so I pray

A prayer for all of us to succeed
Let's not ask for more than we need
May the powerful show a little less greed
Love for each other should be our creed

I thank God for family and friends
Their love and support never ends
Following this road as it winds and wends
This coming year I want to buck the trends

My resolution this year is a simple one
To be a better person when it is done
To live life fully and have some fun
And to serve God's only Son!

Have I Told You Lately

Have I told you lately

How much I love you,
How I miss laying next to you every night,
Miss waking up with you every morning,
Miss lazing around on a Sunday afternoon!

Have I told you lately

How I love looking into your eyes,
You looking back into mine,
Knowing everything we have experienced,
Peering into our future!

Have I told you lately

How I love your sexy legs,
The definition of your calves,
The strength in your thighs,
That sassy way you walk!

Have I told you lately

How much I miss your smile,
Your voice whispering in my ear,
The touch of your lips on mine,
Your tongue dancing with mine!

Have I told you lately

That I love listening to you sing,
Watching you dance,
Stretching your body when you wake,
Having coffee with you in the morning!

Have I told you lately

How soft your skin is,
How I miss the way you touch me,
How I want to touch you,
That I love you!

Have I told you lately?

Sorry

Sorry isn't good enough, time 4 me 2 get tough
1 of u liked it rough, another liked it off the cuff!

Why did I ever go there, lesbians all - please beware,
Don't ever bother 2 care, 4 them str8 bitches don't u dare!

Where now do I turn, a relationship I don't yearn,
B cuz I did learn, I will only feel the burn!

One didn't remember a date, another always was running late,
Another used me as bait, another liked to roller skate.

Yet another made me sweat, another 1 liked 2 bet,
1 in her way was set, another racked up a lot of debt.

1 of u can go str8 2 hell, oh the stories I could sell!
But I won't ever tell - does that ring a bell?

With one I truly had fun, another liked to lay in the sun!
I have yet 2 meet that special one, but 4 now this poem is done.

Thank You Lord

Thank you Lord for blessing me each and every day!
Thank you Lord for teaching me how to live the right way!
Thank you Lord for bringing me up, learning how to pray!
Thank you Lord for giving me a little time to play!

Thank you Lord for the gift of learning how to read!
Thank you Lord for showing me the importance of a good deed!
Thank you Lord for your word and sowing the seed!
Thank you Lord for dying for my sins - your willingness to bleed!

Thank you Lord for family & friends,
Thank you Lord for time, so I can make amends,
Thank you Lord for a life of many turns and bends,
Thank you Lord for forgiving me of my sins!

Thank you Lord for the gift of eternal life!
Thank you Lord for this day - free of strife,
Thank you Lord for the bread w/butter, spread with a knife,
Thank you Lord for blessing me in the future with a wife!

NOW WHAT?

I no longer have a job - even tho' I still get paid.
Hide out in Brazil awhile and enjoy getting laid!

Take a trip down under - that was my plan all along.
Enjoy a little R & R - maybe go back to Patong!

So if you do not hear from me don't be alarmed.
I am not in Iraq anymore - and I'm not being harmed!

I've set my sights on Brazil in the coming Spring.
Where on the beach I lay and play and listen to her sing!

Who is this woman I write of? I will never tell...
But the lust I have for her- will send me str8 2 hell!

The Tree, The Leaf, The Wind

I have been hanging on for far too long,
Two autumn seasons have come and gone,
I have this yearning to fall from the tree,
May the wind blow me for eternity,
And the breeze that blows me be my song!

Why I struggle to hold on I don't know,
It isn't worth the pain and woe,
Maybe because I feel the tree is my source of life,
Could be that I like the strife,
Then these could just be the seeds I sow!

By this time next year I hope to be home,
Sitting on my porch with the approaching gloam,
Smoking a cigarette releasing my breath,
Eventually we all must meet our death,
Maybe I will be working on a new poem!

But first I must will myself to be free from this branch,
Maybe then I will have a chance,
A chance at happiness and bliss,
A chance with someone that loves to kiss,
Or maybe a with someone who loves to dance!

Then again being alone might be fun,
I don't have to report to anyone,
Sleep all day and party all night,
Look all raggedy and give the neighbors a fright,
Go to Brazil and enjoy the sun!

So may the wind blow harder then ever,
I can let go and feel light as a feather,
So North or South - just blow me away,
Give me the strength to not want to stay,
Tree please let this tiny leaf sever!

STATE

My heart is empty
My soul is dry
My body tired
My mind wasted

I Don't Love Her

I don't love her for her smile,
I don't love her for her laughter,
I don't love her for her body,
I love her for her!

I don't love her for her talents,
I don't love her for her mind,
I don't love her for her strengths,
I love her for her!

I don't love her for her dreams,
I don't love her for her past,
I don't love her for her stories,
I love her for her!

I don't love her for her friends,
I don't love her for her family,
I don't love her for her money,
I love her for her!

I don't love her for me,
I don't love her for you,
I don't love her for love,
I love her for her!

Life & Love

a baby is born,
fresh, clean, new
curious, wonderment
little hands, little feet
eyes twinkling

A bud appears on a tree
It is spring
rain permeates the air
feeds the tree
green, new growth

baby becomes a toddler
2 soon 4 most
questioning, eager, learning
loving, kind, gentle
experiments, pains & hurts

spring becomes summer
hot, joyful, loud
long days, short nights
playtime, bbq's, family
violent storms, lightning & thunder

teens, 20's, 30's 40's
life is good mostly
feel it closing in
lose friends, lose family
lose lovers

autumn has arrived
chill in the air
rain - northern winds
leaves fall off the trees
preparation 4 the feast

time 2 go
pass the torch
hopefully it was a good ride
2 late 4 most
death

winter
white covers everything
the end of a year
four seasons gone
nothing more

Lost in Love

Today is the day my true-love has gone away.
Will I see her again or is this time to mend?

I will love her forever - never look at another,
If it is God's will - then may her heart be still!

So she can hear His voice, and we can both rejoice,
For my love is pure and I know we could endure!

I can only be with her if she is 100% sure,
So I might have to wait - Sita, it will never be too late!

No one knows how I feel but I know my feelings are real!
I am not in any hurry - I'll wait for her eyes to become unblurry!

If she never comes around, my love for her will still abound.
I have never loved one so much - thinking of her gentle touch!

I know the Lord has a plan, I am just reaching out my hand!
For me it was never a game - but the way it started was a shame!

I wish we had gone a little slower, taken more time to really know her!
Would I be in this mess - Would we be looking at a wedding dress!

A fantasy that I can't think about - I am single have no doubt.
But don't try to get with me, because I love her for all to see!

So today is a little dramatic, my love for her had me ecstatic!
God has deemed we need time apart - maybe so we can get a fresh start!

Don't hold back when it comes to love, look for answers from above.
Today I will make it through, with God's love and patience too.

Chance or Circumstance

Fantasy!


Did you just happen to stop in here by chance?
Or were u fully aware of the circumstance!

I know me being here has made headline news.
And I don't c u as the type in a bar 2 cruise!

It seems a lifetime ago that I was with you.
But fresh in my memory is the taste of your dew!

Do I want 2 walk over and make a fool of myself?
Or do I hide in this corner like Santa's elf?

You would think confidence comes with popularity.
But with you I stall - wondering - does she remember me?

What do I say to you - it has been so long!
I fantasize about undressing U 2 your thong!

Do U even know that I am here?
I sit here sweating full of fear!

Were U here when I was doing the striptease?
Would U take me home if I say - please?

Now it is my turn on the pool table.
And at this game I am quite able!

So I rack them up and grab my stick!
She breaks the balls - while my lips I lick!

I was definitely feeling my game!
Then I asked her, What was her name?

As the game progressess I can't get u off my mind!
But the balls keep falling for me - fate is being kind!

I win the game and feel a little more sure,
So I turn to you - and U r looking at her!

So now I am confused, what 2 do?
I go up 2 the bar and order a brew!

I write down my number on the flimsy coaster,
Stroll back 2 the game lift my beer to toast her!

It is my turn 2 break the balls!
I c U walk 2 the bathroom - nature calls.

Now is my chance 2 b alone with you!
As I smack the cue ball with my cue!

The eight ball drops so I know it is meant 2 b!
I say, "I'll b right back - I got 2 go Pee!"

I get U alone in the bathroom stall!
Push U up against the grimy wall?

I want to put my mouth on every part of your body!
U dress me down but U r looking so naughty!

Then U grind on me as we start the dance?
And I wonder is this chance or circumstance?



This title was inspired by a fantasy and then the
entire poem seemed to be enveloped with images
of her! So it is as it wasn't supposed to be!

Aching

I can't even express my aching to U
You don't want to hear it - U said we r thru

Each moment 2day I have fought back my tears
I lay in bed each night - U know my fears

Last night U wanted 2 confide in me
But U said U couldn't because I wasn't ready

Maybe 2 hear that U moved on to another
Is just what I need - so in my sorrow i don't smother

If it is that i could understand
I need 2 know - is it U just want a man

But if isn't that then why not give us a try
I need 2 know the whole truth - anything less is a lie

I know we r different that is part of the attraction
But I can only b me - I can't share even a fraction

Sometimes I want to say, LET'S - with no strings attached
But I love U 2 much - my heart U have snatched

But now it has been discarded - like it was trash
No blood left to bleed it - I just want 2 crash

Wake up 2morrow far away from here
Start afresh, like the spring or the coming new year

Even though we fall asleep side by side
This break-up has hurt more than just my pride

You're right when U say I need 2 just let it go
But I am not in the Christmas spirit - I just don't know!

Heart, Mind, Body & Soul

My heart bleeds from the wounds it's endured
My heart aches from the pain and the loss

My mind races from one scenario to another
My mind remembers that it cannot trust

My body reacts to what it feels
My body betrays my inner most wants

My soul forgives and wants to be free
My soul lives with everything for eternity

My heart has been wounded
My mind has been corrupted
My body has been scarred
My soul endures

The Prayer

This road seems so long, yet before I know it another day is gone.
Time to relax and get some sleep, but for some reason it is never deep!

I wake when I hear the smallest sound, I wake when she is nowhere to be found.
I wake up from a bad dream, I wake up in my silent scream.

Get ready for another day, kneel on the floor and quickly pray.
Thank You Jesus for your love, please watch over me from above?

Run out the door jump in the car, running late, I'm glad work isn't that far.
Turn the key, the car doesn't start, please not now, have a heart!

Open up the hood like I know what to do, break my heel on my new shoe!
What else can go wrong? Then I hear my least favorite song.

"Dilemma" is the name of it, Now I really want to throw a fit.
Why is this happening to me? Sometimes from this life I just want to be free.

I go back inside and call my boss, she states that she can't handle the loss.
She tells me I need to find a way, then the power goes out to my dismay.

I have no way to communicate, Please Lord, not today, don't let this be my fate.
Then the lights flicker - my power is back! The news on the TV is talking about an attack!

Now I know why the Lord slowed me down - he was answering my prayer to keep me safe & sound. Thank you Lord for answering my prayer, and watching over me with such loving care!

This is a tale of two lesbians, one of them butch the other one femme,
One was married the other lived in sin, one was sober the other liked the gin!

Many will say their souls they did sell, from God's grace that they fell,
Now they're going straight to hell, Judgmental "Christians" I do tell!

Back to the story at hand, the femme woman owned a lot of land,
Not far from the beach with black sand, the butch woman played in a band.

One night on the beach they did meet, the butch was the first to speak,
"I really need to take a leak", so to the femme's house they did sneak.

The butch woman came on strong, as she ripped off the femme's thong,
Strapped up with one thick and long, Afterward they both hit the bong!

It was laced with some coke, they both thought it was straight up smoke,
So they both took a toke - unfortunately it was some really bad dope!

The femme flipped and ran out the house, swearing she saw a 10' mouse,
The butch was naked on the couch, tripping that she was shooting grouse!

Next thing you know the house is on fire, much to the femme's ire,
the butch's situation was getting dire, drugs got her in this quagmire.

The butch was so pathetic, when the ambulance showed up with the paramedic,
"I thought these Butches were athletic", and then administered the anesthetic.

The house burned to the ground, not even the femme's thong was found,
The femme so gone didn't hear a sound, until the barking of the neighbor's hound.

They were both so wasted it was a shame, the house didn't go up in flame,
it was just the drugs playing a mind game, didn't even know each other's name!

Now the butch did need some help, she had swallowed too much kelp.
A pain like she had never felt, as over the throne her body knelt.

The femme finally came to her senses, realized she had lost her contact lenses,
Heard a noise behind her - she tenses, The time has come to mend some fences.

To AA she did go, the butch showed up, wouldn't you know.
"Are you my friend or foe?" "What I want is to be your beau!'

So together they built a life, in the country where there wasn't much strife.
But then shows up the butch's wife, and stabbed the femme with a "butcher" knife.

Before you think you might cheat, I strongly suggest you beat your meat!
A woman scorned won't go down in defeat, I guarantee she will bring the heat!

Questions of Love?

Is it love if you let them cheat on you? Is it love if you let them beat on you?
Is it love if they lie to you? Is it love if they spy on you?

Is it love if you use them for their money? Is it love if you use them for honey?
Is it love if you always want more? Is it love if you always try to even the score?

Is it love if you argue every night? Is it love if you make up after the fight?
Is it love if you always do the cooking? Is it love if you always are looking?

Is it love if they make you smile? Is it love if you walk the extra mile?
Is it love if they nibble on your ear? Is it love if you get flowers once a year?

Is it love if you kiss with morning breath? Is it love that goes beyond death?
Is it love if you support each other? Is it love if they accept your mother?

The love I have is one of a kind, This love completely blows my mind?
Love to me starts with my heart, Cupid has shot me with his dart!

What is love to you? What should a true love do?
Do you have yourself a boo? To your heart please be true!

Back Up Plan

Let's get one thing straight, this is something that I ain't,
Can't change my color with some paint, don't live the life of a Saint,
The truth I can handle I won't faint!

So don't think of me as a back up plan, just in case you can't find a man,
I may seem like your #1 fan, Make you feel good - that I can,
All you have to do is reach out your hand!

I will only take so much more, then I will head out the door,
not so I can even the score, but because there is so much more,
And I don't want to become a bore!

Your back up plan I won't be, in the near future you will see,
That I am willing to set you free, Keeping it real - that is me,
We both know I will never be a he!

So go ahead and do your thing, happiness it just might bring,
I won't be anyone's fling, Set me free with a broken wing,
In our future I hoped to see a ring!

Is what we have a disgrace, why did I get caught up in this rat-race,
Why do I keep giving chase, is sex to you always so base,
does it matter whether I wear leather or lace?

Where do I go from here? Why do you have so much fear?
When I am away you want me near, when I return you cheer,
When I tell you what I want, you don't want to hear!

So life must go on, Will I see her in the dawn?
Will we have a home with a lawn? Or is this all just a con?
I am dedicating this to Ms. Vaughan!

Gone Away

I can't believe she's gone again, have I committed such a grievous sin?
Sit here wondering what could have been, as I pour myself another tonic & gin!

I know I made mistakes along the way, with another woman I did stray,
but in my mind it was next to her I lay, ask God for strength when I pray.

One more chance is all I ask, but forgiveness is not a simple task.
She thinks my repentance is just a mask, just like I hide my liquor in a flask.

She says it isn't just about me stepping out, we have each gone a different route,
She even had the nerve to say I'm a lout, and now she is giving another woman a shout!

Some bull dyke who owns her own shop, or is it a fem who works as a cop?
Maybe she's a janitor who works that mop, but I bet she don't dance to hip-hop!

You see that is how we met, I was drinking at the bar charging up my debt,
Watching her on the dance floor was making me wet, so I asked her to dance on a bet!

She agreed and then to my house we went, let me tell you- she is just a little bent,
worked me over until I was spent, I still recall her lingering scent.

Three years has come and gone, I think of her as I awake in the dawn,
I look out the window and see a fawn, on the outer edge of my lawn.

It reminds me of a child's innocence, the rhyme about a pocket full of sixpence,
or living the ideal life with a picket fence, suddenly - for an unknown reason I tense!

Why do I hear a key in the door? A shot - a puddle of blood on the floor!
I look up at her and ask, "What is this for"? Your life insurance fool - because you're dirt poor!

A tear forms in my left eye, as I realize she is leaving me here to die,
It won't do any good to cry, I pray to the Lord I don't go to hell to fry!

In my mind I know she has left, for a while she will act like she is bereft,
at acting she is quite deft, I didn't realize I had caused such a cleft!

I hear the sound of an ambulance, I wonder - do I have a chance?
I feel my heart begin to prance, I think I will have one more dance!

Now I am going to track her down, see who now looks like a clown,
as they handcuff her I see her frown - she was dressed up to go out on the town!

On her should I take pity? Move in with her girl in the big city?
I will introduce her to fi'ty, remember this is just a ditty!

THE X

I am writing this 4 my X, the one who said I was no good at Sex,
the one who lives in the state of Tex, she cursed me w/a voodoo hex.

We were acaquaintances for several years, hanging out we had a lot of cheers,
but her infidelity brought me to tears, with a drunk who drank 2 many beers.

I know she knows just how it felt, when she said her new love made her heart melt,
Cried out to God in my agony as I knelt, another blow to my heart that she had dealt.

It all as worked out for the best, she has a new girl that doesn't cause mess,
I am happy with it all off my chest, to her I was always such a pest!

So now it is time to drink a toast to love, Praise the Lord in Heaven above,
I have moved on it just took a shove, now I am peaceful - sign of the dove.

I will keep this short & sweet, all my desires my new love does meet.
She always keeps herself very neat, long legs, dark skin and gorgeous feet!

So 4 U my X, have no FEARS, i won't use that BELT,
this ain't a TEST, what is it made OF, in life don't miss a BEAT!

Sita

This is a tale about a "not" se·ño·ri·ta, who I fondly refer to as, "my Sita",

A girl that I would like 2 meet ya, but hands off playa she is my Bonita.

She hails from all over the map, and I love it when she sits on my lap,

Every morning she drinks a vanilla Frap, and she is constantly giving me crap!

But I still adore her self-conscious ass, She is such a kind and sexy lass,

I know as a child she was such a sass, I wish I could have her body en masse!

"Do you want to suck on my tit, or is it on your face you want me to sit,

or maybe you want to suck my clit, or before I fall asleep you just want a bit?"

She is adventurous - a curious being, But it isn't me she's been seeing,

But my body she has been freeing, I have to stop myself from peeing! :)

A double entendre it is meant to be, to my heart she just might hold the key,

But I will just have to wait and see, because twice already from me she did flee.

She always says let's take things slow, and then between my legs she does go,

Gets me worked up and into the flow, but expects me to, "Just Say No"!

That is not the way I work, Please don't think of me as a jerk,

My duties in bed I will not shirk, but I'll take that 68 and continue to lurk!

"Do u want to feel me deep inside, take u to heaven as if you've died,

or maybe on my tongue u want 2 glide, or just fall asleep side by side?"

I would buy her a beautiful corsage, or give her a full body massage,

I hear her voice as a beautiful montage, I want to assault her with kisses - a complete barrage!

What is this madness all about, why does she leave me in so much doubt?

Take this non-relationship a different route, I wonder if she eats sauerkraut!

Twenty questions she does ask? So now I will put her to the task!

In my sun she will bask! As I drink of her from my flask!