Finished Without A Start

It's like this,
We shared a kiss,
Was it hit or miss?
This was her wish,
I think I've just been dissed!

It's all good,
It ends as it should,
Has the marriage withstood,
Laying up in the hood.
I didn't think it could!

About this I shouldn't write.
It has little to do w/my plight!
I didn't even put up a fight.
How fast she extinguished the light!
I know I will be alright!

Was it something of a game?
Played me, Does she feel any shame!
She shouldn't, I am to blame!
In the end it's all the same.
I wonder will she remember my name?

I wish her the best in life.
I know she will make a good wife.
I have caused her a lot of strife.
Cut me off w/a sharp knife.
Feel like a Barney Fife!

I should feel free as a bird!
But I don't - is that absurd?
My pain is deep - I feel the nerd!
As my tears run - life has been obscured!
But with God in my life I am reassured!

I may be meant to be alone,
Calling friends on the phone,
I don't even have dial tone!
So much for throwing the dog a bone!
All this due to the seeds I've sewn!

Okay, let me move on!
Another would be lover - gone!
Queen handed me over like a pawn.
To save the King of her song!
Sita, I will miss u in the dawn!