Reality Sets In

The reality has finally hit,
I ain't ready for no relationship!
I need to work on me,
After that it is wait & see.

It ain't like I can't commit,
Emotionally I just can't take this shit!
This indecision has me crazy,
Why do I even let it faze me?

Why give chase and then change your mind?
Did you think true love you might find?
If you ain't ready then set me free,
I am so ready to just let it be!

Don't get me wrong, don't twist what I write,
I love you with all my heart, soul & might,
But I am vulnerable, weak & frail,
I won't let this pain be my coffin with nail.

I don't know if I can do the booty call,
Because for you I already did fall,
So if you need me and I say no,
Please realize I want you but there I can't go.

It would be nice if it was more relaxed,
Sex without emotional involvement, just kicked back!
But you see that I as a lesbian,
It is hard to not get attached & just be a friend.

So how do I go about working on me,
To get to the point where I need to be?
To be happy with myself when I'm alone,
I should have managed this long before I was grown.

Now if you think you still want to give it a try,
Let's take things slow and work it on the sly.
Take that to mean whatever you will,
But bitch if someone else touches you, I will Kill.



NOTE: Since some people read this and take it literally I just want to add that this is about flowing. The poem was supposed to be touching but at the end it is like I got crunk! So whoever reads this don't take me at my word just know it is creativity at work.

XotiqueJaz