FIVE YEARS - PART 3

What we had fought about that night I don't even remember.
I remember at the time though that when I left we were both crying.
We didn't fight often but when we did it was a doozy!
Making up was even better.

I was on my way home when the truck cut out on me.
Wouldn't you know I left my cell at home in my anguish.
Now what?
I started walking along the highway to get help.

A police cruiser pulls up
I wasn't far from the truck.
He asked if that was my vehicle back there
Yes, it cut out on me

He offered to give me a ride to the nearest convenient store
I took him up on it
I never did arrive at the store
He took a detour

As soon as I got in the cruiser it started
He had said I had to get in the back
Department Policy
I knew better really - what an idiot

He starts off joking about how am I going to repay him
I'm not laughing
So then he tells me what I am going to do
I said - "don't think so - you got the wrong woman"

Then he started calling me names,
Dyke, bitch. lezbo
He turns off the highway
A very deserted area was straight ahead

After about 5 miles from the main road he pulls over
Steps out of the cruiser and pulls out his gun
Gets into the trunk
rope, duct tape, not looking good

Next thing I know I am coming to
I remember being hit with something
Now I am muzzled and my hands tied behind my back
He is over on the radio

Walks over to me,
called in some back up he jokes
Then the real nightmare begins
I have never felt so dirty in my life

All I can think about is Beth,
How can I face her
What would I say
I wanted to die

10 minutes later another cop shows up
back-up
They took turns
two more showed up

The sun is coming up
I am cold, alone, lost
Bloodied, ashamed, confused
And pissed as hell

I will get my revenge
Even if I have to leave my old life behind
There was no way I could go back to you
Later I found out I was pregnant.