Kelli

I can't believe it's been 20 years!
I cannot count how many tears!
I wish I could see you one last time!
Remembering you playing a mime!

Why it was you-not me-I will never know.
I don't believe it was your time to go.
Was it a suicide or at the hands of Stan?
This is what I don't understand!

Each year, this day, I think of you!
Fond memories, the ads you'd do.
You had us rotgl, in the sun!
You made life in the foster home a little fun!

Did you think of Julie - at all?
Laying in the crib - did she call?
I only wish I knew what was the deal.
Sometimes I think - this isn't real!

Twenty years has eased the pain,
But every anniversary I search in vain,
For the answer - Why?
Every year I have a good cry!

On my 20th birthday I had planned to die,
By my hands - My life was all a lie.
If I had done it would you still be here?
Giving the world so much joy & cheer!

You were always the happy one.
I was the one coming undone!
Our brothers all thought it was me,
It should have been, now I see!

But I was weak - couldn't follow thru,
Now Jack, took his life too!
Charles died 5 years after you,
It was the alcohol he had to pursue.

Was 1984 good or bad?
Julie, Melissa, Jordan - all born made us glad!
Haven't seen Melissa since that Mother's Day,
I hear that she is doing okay.

Last saw Julie when she was only two!
Now a grown woman, What can I do?
Jordan passed away at 16!
This definitely wasn't foreseen!

Crazy, madness, so much death!
Surprising that I don't do meth!
It is good we learned how to pray!
Even tho' you didn't see it that way!

Kelli,

I love and miss you very much. I finally found your daughter when she was 17 and she reached out to me after her 20th birthday. I haven't spoken with her since I have been over here, but I keep her in my thoughts and prayers. I hope her life is going well and I look forward to the time I actually get to see her in person. I am told that she looks a lot like you! I know she is a beautiful woman, a caring woman, I just wish you were here so you could have shared her and yourself with us these last 20 years.

Love Always,

Your baby Sister!